You could say that I started figuring out what my “calling” was when I was seventeen years old. It had been lingering with me, as I hummed and sang to myself while I played with my dolls or in the old storage shed attached to our house. MUSIC. It moved me in a way nothing else ever could. The feel of music, the way it creates its own artwork in people’s ears, how its emotion can move our soul and inspire us was fascinating to me.
As I grew older and fell more in love with Jesus and worshipping with His body, music took on a new perspective. Soon I began leading worship in our youth group. I was astonished by how music through worship could be this living, breathing set of chords and vocal melodies that could release a sense of joy or repentance or unity over an entire group of people.
Soon I started writing music because melodies like to flow like a river out of me sometimes. It was quite a journey finding the balance of writing my revelations, prayers, and emotions to a melody.
I like to say that I found my calling, but I guess after all these years of getting older and wiser I learned that it really found me. Truth be told, God found me: He found the place where I am uninhibited and speaks right to my heart when I am in His presence.
Discovering my purpose wasn’t found in the things that I do, but in the identity that He continually speaks over me. The real beauty of it all is that I have started to learn that I will never arrive into my calling. It will grow, change shape, bend to the left and right, just like a tree. Oh, the beautiful tension of flexibility.
Our whole lives we can be preoccupied with having an answer to the infamous question, “What do you do?” I love a lyric that the Lord placed on my heart:
Like a puzzle piece
She’s finding where she’s made to be
Awakened from a dream
She’s stronger than she’s seen
We’re discovering
The most reassuring answer I have found is to stay so close to the Lord that nothing else matters. The closer I am, the more I begin to learn that I am allowed to discover, fall, fail, and try again. Don’t be afraid to journey with the Lord. He is the best travel partner.
"For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." -Ephesians 2:10 NLT
Watch Rachel as she plays her song “Discovery” from her latest album.
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